Last Sunday’s 60 Minutes’ segment, Tucson: Descent Into Madness, on the recent shooting in Arizona airs an interview of two friends of Jared Loughner.
Their observations offer deeper insight into Jared Loughner. I’ll quote their main recollections below in case that link above doesn’t work.
What caught my attention was when they said how “Jared literally believes in nothing, nothingness”, and that “He was obsessed with how words were meaningless”. That comes awfully close to how I’d describe a Taoist. Indeed, that describes me, albeit without that worrisome “literally believes in nothing” and “obsessed with how words were meaningless”.
The difference between Taoists and Jared is that there has been time for circumstances bring them to maturity (among other things perhaps). Somehow Jared’s mind slipped into ‘taoist- like’ perceptions that his emotions were incapable of dealing with. Clearly, an immature soul that stumbles into the ‘tao’ can have the destructive force of a tornado.
To find meaning when conventional meaning (i.e., name and word based) begins to wither necessitates feeling three emotional treasures: The first is known as compassion, The second is known as frugality, The third is known as not daring to take the lead in the empire.
From a symptoms point of view, we only cling to things and ideas because we need to. Nothing can be worse than having this need without enough faith in that to which we cling. “Believing in nothingness” is the worst of both worlds, and would drive any mind to madness.
By the way, years ago I worried whether sharing my ‘taoist’ point of view might mess up someone’s mind. I was relieved to find I actually never changed anyone’s mind (for more than a moment anyway). We hold our world-views most tenaciously! Although, Jared shows why I was concerned. Fortunately everything happens to us naturally, whether or not to our liking.
I now realize that anyone who understands what I’m saying already knows, at least intuitively, what I’m driving at. In other words, we only truly understands what we already know. Understanding vs. Knowing speaks to this somewhat. Those who do not know yet think that they know, are simply shaping their understanding to match their current gut knowing (feeling). An example of this are the Islamic terrorist killing in the name of Allah (same goes for Christians, Jews, Buddhist (etc.) who are such in name only). Jarad was a kind of ‘taoist’ in name only.
From the 60 Minutes interview with Jared’s friends.
“I was afraid I was going to wake up and find and see his name in an obituary in a couple of days,” Bryce Tierney, a close friend Jared Loughner, told Pelley (the 60 Minutes’ interviewer).
“Up until he was about 19 or 20 he was always, you know, pretty enthusiastic, pretty passionate. He was always quiet but you could see that there was that passion in him. He did care, he was happy. He was always an observer and especially around the time he started getting mentally ill.”
Tierney and Conway say that’s because their friend was slipping into insanity and it was showing up in the poetry he wrote. “I started seeing heavy influence of just chaos and just non-connective patterning in his, in his poetry. Just ranting or mixing of ideas,” Conway explained.
“Did you ask him what he was driving at, what he was thinking?” Pelley asked. “Oh, yeah,” Conway replied. “And I told him, I was like, ‘Like, because I read it and I just don’t find, I find nothing. It’s like nothingness to me and he was like, ‘Exactly!’ You know, that’s where the meaning is. “People are gonna say he doesn’t believe in anything but it’s not that he doesn’t believe in anything he literally believes in nothing, nothingness.”
Tierney and Conway told “60 Minutes” Loughner was interested in a philosophy called nihilism; it essentially says life is meaningless. They say he was obsessed with the film “Waking Life” in which a man walks through his dreams listening to various philosophies.
A character in the film echoes something at the center of Loughner’s apparent delusions: that big government and media conspire to silence the average guy. To protest his lack of voice, the character in the film sets himself on fire.
Loughner told his friends reality has no more substance than dreams. “He was obsessed with how words were meaningless, you know, you could say ‘This is a cup.’ And he’d be like, ‘Is it a cup or is it a pool? Is it a shark? Is it, you know, an airplane?’ You know?” Conway said.