There exists a fine line between bored and content which I often stagger back and forth across as I ‘blow zen’ each day. We came up with a motto during the years we held our weekly Taoist meeting… “be bored again” (a taoist version of ‘be born again’). No wonder attendance was always meager!
The curious thing about boredom is that we are often tempted to blame the ‘outside’ for causing the boredom we feel within. One major step toward self understanding took place when I realized the boredom I felt was my fault. That helped me contend less (’what was’ versus ‘what I want’). Ironically, accepting fault (responsibility) neutralizes fault. In other words, It is because it does not contend that it is never at fault. I suppose it feels ironic because my biology (instinct, neural networks and the like) clamor for denial. “It’s not my fault”, they scream. Biology drives us to squirm away from contentment and seek ‘greener grasses’. Fool me once, fool me… well, let’s just say I can see through life’s act better now for I’ve experienced otherwise; taking the lower position actually works best. It is just a little difficult to do at times, and naturally so.
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