"What should I do now?"
"Nothing! After all, the sage keeps to the deed that consists in taking no action
"You mean I must just sit here and do nothing?"
"No!"
"Well, I'm confused!"
"Good! That is the best place to begin."

OK, enough beating around the bush. Simply said, the question, 'what should I do now?' is something of an oxymoron. 'Now' and 'should' exist in separate frames of references. 'Should' only arises when we are not truly present in our moment. It lives in an imagined future or past. Should arises from the shadows of a dream world where 'I' chews over what it thinks it needs to be happy. Should is symptomatic of the emotional conflict we experience between how things are and our ideals. Should happens when our imagined desires contend with reality - often a reality we desire to avoid. Again, 'should' is a symptom of being divided between 'now' and 'then'; it doesn't exist in the spontaneous 'now'.

The simple fact is that when we honestly return to the moment, we always know what we need to do in our heart of hearts (see If You Are Worn Out Trying... at the bottom of Buddha's Four Noble Truths ). Too many desires, i.e., imagined needs, rob us of this sense of immediacy, and so off we go on our by-paths.

Life is a journey that starts from beneath one's feet. Now is always now, and always beneath our feet. When we follow this path, 'should' is irrelevant; we take the names and words in our brain's thoughts with a grain of salt. This is what makes the way easy.

Note: There is a stressful social aspect to 'should'. A bonus in returning to 'now' is that 'should' loses much of its bite. We feel far less need to play that game. Of course, in the spirit of full disclosure I should add that, as humans, we are stuck with a big thinking brain that imagines a future and a past. So any thought of a total returning to 'now' is just another silly ideal. The good news is that knowing what's going on 'behind the scenes' helps us cease to desire and remain still.

O.K That's it! I'm going to clean up my desk today Lynn. You've inspired me. Not to joke, but you are right on. What you wrote is beautiful. "It was like a day of interruptions." I will ponder that. When we get in touch with that, that there is no where we are going but here, there are no real interruptions.