Most of us accept that each person is born with a God given gift—a talent of sorts. What may be less known is that such talent is not actually a gift at all… talent is paid for in full at birth. I’ve come to know a few people extremely well. Each person, as far as I’ve seen, bears this out. I admit this is not much of an empirical sampling. Still, it makes sound philosophical sense.
Knowing myself best, I’ll be the example. Like everyone, I have acquired various skills over the years. My wife says I am a writer. No, in fact I only gradually developed a modest skill in writing to express my deeper ability to notice what others may not notice, or at least unable to put into words. Actually, I may be an explorer at heart… but am I? It may be more revealing to consider what price we pay for our gifts. What deficiency drove me to be the explorer I am?
Disconnection, plain and simple drives me. I was never socially engaged in American culture as a youth from as early as I can remember. Somewhat oddly, I never felt bothered by that fact either. I never felt left out because I never wanted to belong. That said, looking back on the many years spent abroad were really a search for home. Home was not only emotional (i.e., tribal connection), but philosophical as well. My shear lack of cultural ties drove me to search for meaning in life. I had no choice; I was out in a ‘paradigm wilderness’ and needed to discover what mattered. Unable to adopt the cultural story in which I was raised, or any other that I came across, I had to reinvent the wheel. Fortunately, The Tao Te Ching offers me useful stepping-stones without getting in the way!
It finally took having my own children to find my true emotional home. That brought me to realize how essential social connection is for humans, and how fragmentary that connection has become since the Agricultural Revolution. Nothing replaces the social security of the tribal bond, which has genuinely deteriorated ever since our hunter-gatherer days (1).
It also took me coming to my wits end with words to find a real philosophical home. I realized that the meaning of every thought I had hinged on the words with which I thought. It was a vicious circle. The basis for belief itself was melting away. There was no way out but to deal with the words themselves—to correlate them. (See Tools of Taoist Thought: Correlations. p.565.) This process loosened the grip words had on me, and alleviated some of the disease referred to in chapter 71: Realizing I don’t’ know is better; not knowing this knowing is disease (2).
In summary, the emptiness in my life drives everything I do. Emptiness, loss, failure, death, etc., drive me to do what I must to fill the ‘hole’ in life. (See Peeking in on Nature’s Hoodwink, p.11.)
This quid pro quo view of talent as being merely an upshot of emptiness might feel unpleasant or threatening. Chapter 40 paints a stark reality: In the opposite direction, of the way moves. Loss through death, of the way uses. This opposite direction is the antithesis of what our personal and tribal ego wants to hear. It is easy to see why the Taoist worldview isn’t mainstream.
(1) We don’t realize how socially disconnected we are. You can’t miss what you’ve never had. It took the circumstances of our family life: home schooling, home music, home garden, home business, home yoga, home Taoist and such to open my eyes and heart. It also helped that I was in my mid 40’s when I started a family. (See A Tao of Parenting, p.343.)
(2) It is difficult for us to know how peaceful a cognition-less consciousness would be. Names and words obstruct the view and language dominates mind. As D.C. Lau put it in chapter 71, To think that one knows will lead to difficulty, and this difficulty has certainly faced us ever since we humans evolved the ability to think.
River Wolf says
Ah, gifts/blessings – seems to me that what is a blessing is a curse. What is a writer’s gift? The wandering, lustful mind. What is a writer’s curse? The very same thing that prevents him/her from keeping to the same location or task.
Over-reliance on personal talent may make one forget to work with others. Too much of anything becomes a problem.
My word, I didn’t see this Russian reply till your post. Pravda eh? And the 🙂 face. Interesting. Years ago I learned some Russian along with Cyrillic script before my travels in Russia. I can see here it’s all been forgotten. Oh well, have to make room for today’s clutter.
Thank you for sharing your gift. I for one appreciate how you express your explorations, more than I appreciate in general the ‘use of words’ by others.
Faith requires faith to believe in it… as light requires a source to shine. What light, what source, what shine? Good questions.
And the object-subject-action? It’s you-you-you. (Connected)
By the way, Правда – pravda – truth, is the only word I recognize in the Russian reply… What does that say about my gift? 😉
In this way I pay you back.